Okay firstly let me think...
I just want to make it more clearly. Honestly, there are two things that cause the ambiguity in my mind, okay... sounds like drama but the fact is I'm fucking facing it now. talk about the frequently of  something; something like relationship? Okay more specifically like You and Me.

The problem is Time, You or even I? 
I don't know but it so complicated to me, I just always stuck of this thought; it's just a feeling? or i just was wondering for a while?. Unfortunately, I just being a secret admirer for the second time sounds cowardly and it sucks you know. 

Regret?
the answer is both Yes and No. I can't handle this feeling, I admit it and actually I know the answer even if i'm not asking. But, if you know something is going to end badly, could you stop it while it is still running beautifully? 

Am I wrong? No. Blame you? Oh I'm not 
Time... I know you always right and I know at the end of this story it depends on me and yeah of course the object who in my story as well. But... would you tell me the right side on you? this is about when and always when, this is about you and when, and this is about when the right time comes to say it all?